fridays are for me

I UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF THE ORIGINAL QUOTE BUT FOR THE SAKE OF WHAT I’M TRYING TO RELAY, HUMOR ME. I BELIEVE THAT “YOU CAN IN FACT HAVE YOUR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO” BASICALLY THE IDEA THAT AS A MOM YOU DON’T HAVE TO LET GO OF YOUR PASSIONS. YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY STILL DIVE INTO EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING AND YOU SHOULD, YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF TO EXPLORE THAT PART OF YOU.

I HAVE MAJOR F.O.N.C FEAR OF NOT CREATING, PRONOUNCED FONK…ALSO KNOWN AS WHAT THE FONK. I WANT TO DO AND DISCOVER ALL THE THINGS FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE OF EXPLORING WHO I AM OR COULD BE EVEN IF IT DOESN'T PAN OUT. EXPLORATION NOT EXECUTION. WE WILL CIRCLE BACK TO THAT IN A LATER POST.

YOU KNOW MY BEST FRIEND BETHANY? THE FAMOUS ARTIST. WELL SHE WENT TO SCHOOL TO BECOME A PARAMEDIC. JUST BECAUSE SHE FELT LIKE IT. AND I CRAVE THAT SORT OF NOVELTY IN LIFE. SOMETHING NEW AND EXCITING EVEN IF IT’S FOR A SEASON BECAUSE OVER TIME THESE ADVENTURES MAKE US, EVOLVE US AND IN TIME FORTIFY US.

THIS YEAR I MADE THREE DIFFERENT VISION BOARDS. ONE WAS AN OVERALL GLANCE OF WHAT I WANT FUTURE ME TO HAVE EXPERIENCED, LITTLE CUT OUTS OF TRAVEL, FOOD, BEAUTIFUL GARDENS ETC. THE SECOND ONE WAS A HOUSE VISION BOARD, WHERE I WANT MY HOUSE TO BE AT IN TERMS OF STYLE BY END OF YEAR. WE HAVE BEEN IN THIS HOUSE SINCE 2019 AND WE'VE ONLY JUST FINISHED HALF A BATHROOM, HALF THE GIRLS’ ROOM AND THE OFFICE AND GUTTED OUR MASTER BEDROOM. IT REALLY DOES SEEM LIKE SOMETHING POPS UP RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF WANTING TO RENOVATE BUT I AM MANIFESTING SMOOTH SAILING AND REASONABLE GOALS.  

MY FINAL VISION BOARD WAS FOR THIS BLOG. IF YOU WERE HERE BEFORE YOU WOULD KNOW THAT I RECENTLY REVAMPED THE BLOG AND ARCHIVED ALL MY WRITING TO START OVER FRESH. MAYBE IN SOME WAYS THIS IS THE TINY BIT OF NOVELTY I NEEDED AS I AWAIT MY DARLING GIRL TO BE HERE WITH US. I ALSO FELT THE NEED TO REBRAND BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE A COMPLETELY NEW PERSON COMPARED TO LAST YEAR WITH THE MISSCARRIAGE AND REWIRED BRAIN. I SORT OF PUT ON THESE BLINDERS IN LIFE AND KNEW EXACTLY WHERE I WANTED TO GO THIS YEAR AND WHAT I WANT TO EXPERIENCE. 

I'VE BLOCKED OUT MY FRIDAYS FOR THIS WEEKLY SELF DISCOVERY. WE HOMESCHOOL MONDAY  THROUGH THURSDAY AND I LEAVE MY FRIDAYS OPEN FOR THIS. I RECENTLY DECIDED TO ADD A FEW MORE THINGS ASIDE FROM BLOGGING. INCLUDING A BIT MORE PHOTOGRAPHY, SOME LIGHT EXPLORATION OF GARDENING AND GETTING A BIT MORE SERIOUS ABOUT CONTENT CREATION ON INSTAGRAM.

I DO FEEL MY STRENGTH LIES WITHIN THE WRITTEN WORD. I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL BECOME OF CONTENT CREATION OR GARDENING OR CRACKING OPEN THE NEW COOK BOOK THAT’S BEEN COLLECTING DUST FOR A MONTH. BUT I AM EXCITED FOR THE NEW… EXCITED FOR THE UNKNOWN.